A Journey To Self

Learning how to love all that I am

Let's Get Started (sorry about the pictures)
babydee6389

So, I had the intention of going shopping yesterday. Of course, since Sunday is my official date day with my love, I should've known better. We ended up doing something he's wanted to do with me for all 3.5 years we've been together. . . We rented a wave runner. It was terrifying and amazingly awesome, and it made him happy, which makes me happy.

By the time we were done riding, showering and eating, everything was closed. So, we went to target. Target turned out to have a few great finds.

I found two shirts that lend themselves to fairy kei coords.


For this one I'm thinking white shorts and pink tights.


I'm not sure about this one yet, but I'll think some more.

These are loose fitting t-shirts. I'll be able to fit a colored cami under them, adding another layer of color.

I found these lovely wedges.


I think these will work with some classic Lolita coords as well as some fairy kei.

These fun tights.


I don't know how Lolita these are, but I love them.

These headbands.


This cute = no explanation!

Besides shopping, I decided to look through the clothes in my closet.

I believe these two dresses could be turned into a beautiful Lolita coord with the addition of a petticoat, waist ties, lace, a blouse or cardigan and accessories.


I also have these shoes, which I need to clean. I am thinking they'd be better with colored shoe laces. These may look good with the first shirt.


I'm going to keep looking for more clothes and accessories I can use to make some coordinates that make me feel beautiful and special. I'm also going to make a list of the items I need to create my first few outfits.

On another note. . .
I started to introduce my love to Lolita fashion through pictures. He is not against it, but I know that he doesn't love it either. He likes when I dress. . .well, sexy. . .I'm not sure modesty is going to go over well with his natural aesthetic. So, the plan is to just talk him through each step. Show him everything and make sure he's comfortable with everything I'm doing. Maybe I can combine the two... Without being ita. . .I mean there is ero loli, which I'm not really interested in for everyday....this may get complicated. I mean, I've dressed one way for our entire relationship, I defiantly don't want to push him away by changing my outside too much. But I need to express myself. Finding a balance is crucial, and hopefully I will.

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An Introduction
babydee6389
Hi.

I'm Dani.

I'm 23. I work one full time and one part time job, both in food service. I live with the love of my life of 3.5 years.

I'm a creative type. I love anything to do with music and art. Reading and writing make my heart beat. Scrapbooking and card making are my passions of the moment. I try to spend all my free time scrapping.

I'm a natural type, though not out doors-y. I love feeling connected to the natural and catching those one-of-a-kind moments that get overlooked by most.

So, why am I here?

I've always held myself back because of the fear of not being accepted, which is really just a fear of being alone. I've backed out of most creative activity that would've helped me express and define myself, so now it's time to get to know myself again. And turn my outside into a true representation of my inside.

So this blog will be a way for me to track several things. Mostly my exploration of japanese street fashion. I've been following Lolita for a year or two and I've been too afraid to try it, but that will change. Fairy kei is another fashion I can't wait to play with. My weight is next, I have been trying to lose weight forever and maybe now will be the best time to act on it. Then there will be some crafting, drawing, sewing and designing. . . Hopefully. I may talk about my job or relationship. I may explore my religion or sexuality. . . I'm not sure.

With each entry I just hope to feel better. Closer to showing my true self.

So it begins. . .
babydee6389



I've always dreamt in full color. I see myself in exotic lands, distant times with a rich decadent life. Rainbows, unicorns and fairies make recurring appearances in my nightly dreams.




Then I wake up.

And, like most people, my real life is nothing like the one I dream of. It's not full of the bright colors and imaginative characters. I go to work, come home and do it again each day. Where's the imagination, where's the fun?

I'm not a "normal" 23 year old professional. I love the care bears and believe in mermaids. Pink will forever be my favorite color. Glitter, sparkles and all things shiny make me warm inside.

So, I'm on a mission to accept that I'm not a "normal" 23 year old. To add more of my dreams into my everyday life. And to find inspiration for myself and others like me.




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